Monday, November 21, 2011
Why Did You Have To Die
My best friend died yesterday. I hurt so bad. I feel like I am being crushed. My head hurts. My body hurts. The tears won't stop. I don't know what to do right now. So sad! I am mad too!! So mad!! I would hit something if I wasn't too depressed. I haven't ever had this kind of pain before. I wish we would have stayed the night with her Saturday. I don't know what to do. I miss her so much. Oh god, help me find the strength to deal. I'm not doing very good today at all!! I feel like if I don't keep busy, I will be crushed from the inside out. She killed herself cuz her boyfriend died. I am mad at her and I am SO mad at him for ruining one of the most beautiful people I have ever known. I am sad because she isn't here any more. I can't talk to her anymore. I wish she was still here so I could talk to her again, hug her again.